June!! I’m not even kidding when I say I feel honored to read your writing again. Maybe I see a kindred spirit. But besides that, you’re so intelligent and genuine. That kind of hurt really does take years to address and work through. It seems wise to be self aware enough to sort through some things that still affect you. The detachment is so real and I believe our nervous systems can repress experiences or learned responses to protect us until we’re ready to unwrap them. Also, you know you have a great therapist when you feel like you’ve cognitively thought about so many details and perspectives, and they still find a way to help you see a blind spot. You reflect very well in your writing, keep on! 📝💓
Rachel, I don’t have the right words to express what this message means to me. First, I love to find a kindred soul, I am grateful to have met you here.
Second, your take is spot on here. I’ve been privileged in my life to always have access to therapy, so I’ve returned on and off through the last 15 years. Out of many people I’ve worked with, usually the depth which which I have intellectualized my past stumps the therapist. I’m so lucky to have found someone who is cutting through all that bs and helping me uncover who I am!
I feel that! I had one tell me “well it seems like you know the psychology behind everything you’re talking about”, like okay but I’m losing my mind sometimes help meee? Lol. So glad you’ve found a good one to help guide you through this. And I’m grateful to have met you here too! (:
Ahhhh yup I have been told similar things. Never give up on that pull inside of you to feel better, lighter, freer. You may know your story backwards and forwards, but can you connect to it emotionally?
I can’t usually and that’s where the work is left to do!
That’s such a good point. Beginning from my teen years, I started hurting so much that I decided to try to understand myself and my environment from a scientific approach, despite being undeniably emotional and sensitive at heart. I masked my true self for a long time and I’m slowly waking up from it. Your comment actually made me think deeper into one of the pieces I’m working on writing, thank you 🥲🙏💙
June!! I’m not even kidding when I say I feel honored to read your writing again. Maybe I see a kindred spirit. But besides that, you’re so intelligent and genuine. That kind of hurt really does take years to address and work through. It seems wise to be self aware enough to sort through some things that still affect you. The detachment is so real and I believe our nervous systems can repress experiences or learned responses to protect us until we’re ready to unwrap them. Also, you know you have a great therapist when you feel like you’ve cognitively thought about so many details and perspectives, and they still find a way to help you see a blind spot. You reflect very well in your writing, keep on! 📝💓
Rachel, I don’t have the right words to express what this message means to me. First, I love to find a kindred soul, I am grateful to have met you here.
Second, your take is spot on here. I’ve been privileged in my life to always have access to therapy, so I’ve returned on and off through the last 15 years. Out of many people I’ve worked with, usually the depth which which I have intellectualized my past stumps the therapist. I’m so lucky to have found someone who is cutting through all that bs and helping me uncover who I am!
Thank you thank you thank you for being here!
I feel that! I had one tell me “well it seems like you know the psychology behind everything you’re talking about”, like okay but I’m losing my mind sometimes help meee? Lol. So glad you’ve found a good one to help guide you through this. And I’m grateful to have met you here too! (:
Ahhhh yup I have been told similar things. Never give up on that pull inside of you to feel better, lighter, freer. You may know your story backwards and forwards, but can you connect to it emotionally?
I can’t usually and that’s where the work is left to do!
That’s such a good point. Beginning from my teen years, I started hurting so much that I decided to try to understand myself and my environment from a scientific approach, despite being undeniably emotional and sensitive at heart. I masked my true self for a long time and I’m slowly waking up from it. Your comment actually made me think deeper into one of the pieces I’m working on writing, thank you 🥲🙏💙
girl we are kindred spirits!
Very relatable and tender 🫶🏽
Especially this part:
“The sadness and grief I feel for these versions of myself. The anger and disappointment I feel towards those whose job it was to make me feel safe….”
oooh yes, therapy is a wonder isn’t it.. thank you for reading and leaving this sweet comment!
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