Welcome to my stream of consciousness.
As a 28-year-old chronic overthinker, I’ve often described my anxiety as something like a stock market ticker tape.
It’s running constantly in the background, and you might catch it reading something like:
Career anxiety up 20% today, while trauma-related concerns dip slightly following a productive therapy session. Buy into the idea that quitting your job will make you feel better, but confronting your fear of failure will only make things worse.
Somewhere along the way, that ticker became my defining personality trait.
Years of perfectionism for other people’s benefit. Being the fixer, the caretaker… the punching bag. Silently adjusting to fit whatever version of me other people needed.
And now, a backlog of unmet needs of my own has brought me here.
“Wherever you go, there you are.”
No matter who I’ve been, what I’ve done, or where I’ve gone, I keep ending up in the same place.
With my utterly imperfect self. It’s time I learned to embrace her.
I started this because journaling always felt a little too contained for my liking.
I’d rather put those thoughts here and let them be read, related to, judged, misunderstood.
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